addicted to
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection




tagboard ;
guestbook

i'm not here to win

i'm here to leave a legacy

run


sooner or later it's over

finally, it's the 30th of october. going to be a hell of an afternoon. i'm scared...

drama nite yestd was simply magical. though...i think that many of us were getting goosebumps from.. -cough- i must say, it was a very special night (:

it was the last time, that 27 of us, fielers, were gathered to do some very fulfilling fundraising.
the dee-thorning (hahah! dee!! thanks for coming downnn.loveyouloadsss.)
the arranging
the panicking
the moneyyy
the advert (way to go cherylteo! hahah, you'll always be our idol -cough-)
the promoting
the begging
the aftershock when we realised, it was over.

twenty-seven.
that number will never be forgotten. not ever in my entire life. (if my life is that long in the first place) the most amazing thing happened last night, ning was arranging candles on our booth table. she arranged it to form the word "F I E L" :D guess what? there were exactly twenty-seven candles!!!! though it was sad that two were flickering out...it reminded me of sam and rad. i'm really going to miss you guys :( i wish everything would just stay as it was... no, the world will never wait for me to be ready. the world is impatient. sigh. we must adapt. adapt to change.... if only, it was that easy.

the greatest thing everrr, was when we actually went up there to lead the cheers. fwah would've been proud... standing before 400 over people, cheering your heart out. that's something that nobody, nothing can ever replace. i'm glad people actually cheered with us (:

but ofcourse not forgetting being with two-eight. a few days away from you people and i already feel like i haven't seen you people for a year... okay, i shall face it that i am bad at letting go. i miss last yr. our experience at drama nite. me and my dumb cheerleading thing. farina! we declared her the best person who could ever act as a guy. hahah! nevermind, we will rock netball carn ;) c'mon, we can do it! gahh, going to miss so many things, so many people. all the intangibles...

when everything's made to be broken ;
i just want you to know who i am.

fiel '04 ; twenty-seven
fiel the love
adelante fielmente
duty guides us, but love will bind us (:

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

it's the passion that drives you